Between the traffic and the ordinary sounds

Its been months since I last typed a coherent paragraph of my thoughts, not that life has come to a standstill of some sort. In fact, life’s been moving at such a fast pace that sometimes I find myself running to catch up, like chasing after a moving train. So much has happened since my last entry whining about school (as always heh); summer has come and summer has gone. Well.. sometimes I form these paragraphs of words in my head that I mean for myself to type out, but then i subconsciously backspace them in my mind and forget all about it, worrying myself about daily tasks instead.

So… life’s been good, really :) Not asking for much, just wanting more of Him, less of me. Summer did mess my mind up abit, a lil lost in my own world. It was the doing-nothing-kinda-feeling. You know you’re a workaholic when you’re most productive+effective when you’re busy…Ahh. Not that its a bad thing anyway, right? Anyway, its week 10 of school, i almost can’t believe it and i’m actually quite sad… Yes, despite lessons and tests and assignments and crazy projects, I do enjoy the process of learning, of gaining knowledge. I wish I can spend more time pouring over my textbooks leisurely. Ok geek alert.

But i’m enjoying this term, enjoying the process :) I’ve really been learning a lot this term, especially about discipline in my walk with God. Seems like the new year resolution is finally coming to pass. Early mornings late nights. I’m learning the importance of prayer and I look forward to wednesdays no matter how busy the week is. Learning to play the guitar (yes seriously no joke after 6 years hahaha), just sitting on my bed making “noise” with my horrible strumming makes me happy. Learning to not go mad and focus on school alone during the school term (which, often, happens). Learning that God is always bigger, greater and stronger. Learning to practice (and understand) what I preach; that often its easy to encourage others but we take it harder on ourselves. Learning that what is good for me in His eyes might not necessarily be what I think to be good for me. Learning to be patient. Learning to listen to Him in all things and not my heart nor my mind. Learning to trust in Him fully. And, alot more… :)

Well the weeks ahead look crazy and long, a little apprehensive and afraid, but yet I know He’ll be there to guide me through and I need to learn to rely on His strength and not mine.

Help me to remember to always put You first too. Good night world.

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